Yes, recently the feeling of fall has definitely crept in as summer is winding down. This cloudy rainy weather that I woke up to this morning is definitely reminding me of this. Truthfully I felt fall though almost a month earlier around the beginning of August. I didn’t say anything because its a bitter sweet feeling for me. As I get older I become very connected to the passing of each season. It’s definitely true that as you get older life only seems to go faster and faster. I know fall is inevitable and yet I still have a hard time letting summer go. I like the warmth and the sun that summer brings to the pacific northwest. The changing of the seasons is one of many things that is out of my control so I will just have to let this passage of summer into fall go through, but not without taking a moment to reflect.
The song I picked for my song of the week doesn’t have to do with this transition from summer to fall directly. The song I picked for this week is a song that I’ve been listening to a lot over the last week. In efforts to switch up my music selection at my house I was going through my CDs and found a CD that my coworker burned for me. I put the CD in and let it play. When it got to the song I picked I had to play it on repeat a few times to really let it soak in. It’s the tempo and sound of the song that really fit me this week. With the intro of fall entering my life I always feel like life is slowing down.
This feeling of the year coming to an end is very appropriate in a way because there really is only 4 months left of the year. I can’t believe that 2013 is almost done already. I have to say in many ways so far 2013 has been a great year for me. I seem to do better on the odd number years. You would think with it being “13” it would be an unlucky year, but it’s been a good year overall for me. Lots of growth, lots of change, and lots of movement going forward.
I guess the part of fall that I have such a hard time with is I tend to become very reflective. I tend to go back through the current year and all the years before it and really dig through where I’m at with my life. Fall just doesn’t have the brightness and openness that spring has for me. The death of the world around me as nature prepares to hideout till next spring is beautiful and sad for me.
I don’t at all mean to be a Debbie downer and put a big damper on the coming season of fall for there are many great things I have to look forward to during fall. There is many holidays on the horizon that I will get to spend more time with my family. The football season is upon us as well. Also, the Timbers are doing well and have a great chance to do well in the playoffs so that is very exciting as well. Fall term starts soon and who knows what that will bring. The reality is that whether you like to acknowledge it or not the ending of 2013 is approaching.
So lets get back to the song at hand. The song I picked this week is a song by Fiest called “Limit To Your Love”. The heavy deep piano and the slow tempo definitely fit my mood of late. I have spent much of the summer trying to be as busy as I can be and now I feel myself slowing down a bit.
Summer is definitely not over yet and I’m on the last day of work before I take my last vacation of the summer. Two days from now I will be on my way up to see my second family in Seattle area again. I will also be attend the video game convention called PAX Prime. Much fun will be had and it will be nice to take one last break from work before I dive back into school again. I’m very proud of the effort I made to really enjoy summer this year and I think that I really made the best of what I could. Can’t wait till next summer!
There is a second connection to this song I picked this week. That connection is the feeling of realizing there is definitely a limit to my love. Limit to your love? I have always looked at love as limitless. Well, love is limitless that is for sure and unconditional as well. However, what I mean by saying there is a limit to my love is I have started to realize that I give much myself to the world. I’m a very loving person and I care a lot. Many people have used that against me. By that I mean many people have stopped by in my life to just take my love and compassion that they may be lacking in there own life. Which is fine because to a certain degree because sharing my love and compassion is part of who I am, but there is a limit to this love. Love needs to be reciprocated to be truly used correctly. There are have been a few people that have not quite given back as much as I have given. Without going into detail of who I’m taking about my overall point is that there is definitely a “limit to my love” these days. I’m learning how much to give and understanding how to love without having to devote serious energy as well. The tank of love that I have can be drained. There have been many times with past girlfriends especially that I have been more than drained of that precious love I have. I give a lot of love and I deserve just as much love in return.
Just so there is no confusion 95% of the people in my life give me so much love back. I’m a VERY lucky guy and truly blessed. The ones that have really pushed me have been taken out of my life over time. I still have love for them, but they will no longer call on me to fill their life with love they cannot find themselves. It’s funny the people who try to step in and destroy the person I have become. I’m truly the happiest and healthiest I have ever been in my entire life and it’s only getting better for myself the more work I do. Some people whether they realize it or not have a hard time with this because they lack the same thing in their own life. Message I’m sending to the universe these days is I will no longer be your love refueling station.
"The Limit To Your Love"
Clouds part
Just to give us a little sun
There's a limit to your love
Like a waterfall in slow motion
Like a map with no ocean
There's a limit to your love
There's a limit to you care
So carelessly there
Is it truth or dare
There's a limit to your care
I love I love I love
This dream of going upstream
I love I love I love
The trouble that you give me
I know I know I know
That only I can save me
I'll go I'll go I'll go
Right down the road
There's a limit to your love
Like a waterfall in slow motion
Like a map with no ocean
There's a limit to your love
Your love your love your love
I can't read your smile
It should be written on your face
I'm piecing it together
There's something out of place
Oh
I love I love I love
This dream of going upstream
I love I love I love
All the trouble that you give me
I know I know I know
That only I can save me
I'll go I'll go I'll go
Out on the road
Because there is no limit
There's no limit
No limit no limit no limit
Limit to my love
I think the lyrics speak for themselves. It’s a really pretty song and with some powerful messages. I think is a perfect fit for the season on the way, but lets make the most of what is left of summer.
As always I send this with so much love and pure D-lite. = )
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