So, for all those that have been following my blog for a while you may have noticed that it takes me awhile to get some messages or lessons through my thick skull sometimes. Sometimes it even takes quite a few songs to get it to sink in and stay. So, keeping with last weeks trend I’m sticking with changing the way I look at things in the love department for myself. The process of switch gears from not what’s happened in the past, but instead focusing on what possibilities lie ahead of me. The possibilities of what can happen in the future can be very exciting.
I remember the first time I heard this song called “I Don’t Know” by my cousin Jason Heine. I was listening to my cousin stream a slow jam DJ set on his TwitchTV channel when in the mix he slipped this song in without any warning. I instantly froze and listened to the song very intently. I did pick up my phone during the song and text my cousin some strong profanities (in a jokingly manor) about him keeping this song from me. Why did I do this? Because over the years I have been lucky enough to be one of the people that gets early listens to many of his creations. This was not one of those songs though. This song he hid from me and with good reason. This song was special and even he knew that. I instantly fell in love with this song and I had many great things to say to him about this song. Lucky for me it was included on the CD he put out last year entitled Nothing Last Forever. I only had to wait a few long months after he previewed it before I could play it over and over as much as I wanted to. Oh and once I got the CD I definitely did.
That was many months ago and I have been hiding this song from you just as my cousin did. With good reason of course. I needed the right time to let it really have an impact on me so I could explain why this song means so much to me. Jason’s last album really is some of his best work yet. It has been a very landmark album in his music career. But beyond the great music he made the song touched me in many other ways.
Fast forward to this week. I added this song into the mix of songs that is forging me ahead into new territory with myself. I know much history behind what this song is about in detail for my cousin because I know my cousin well, but that information doesn’t need to be told. What is more important when talking to him about this song we both agreed its about asking to let go of the past and opening up room for the new to come into our lives. When interviewing him about his album we definitely were in the same place in life with ourselves in this regard.
As you get older the things about having a special someone become much different from when we were younger. It’s more about having a companion or a partner to share life’s moments with. Sure you want to be attracted to them and all that good stuff, but the real heart of it is finding someone that really just enjoys you. I know that sounds so simple to say, but it’s true. That is all you really need and that's what I’m on the hunt for now.
Now for the lyrics:
Jason Heine: "I Don't Know" 2012 Nothing's Forever
Chorus X 1: I just wanna be with you
At night I dream of you I wonder if you feel it to girl but I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
Verse: But you wouldn't, believe all these memories
that I got locked in these tapes with these 8 millameters
You wouldn't believe the outtakes
You wouldn’t believe the cakes we would eat on these holidays
So here I am straight livin' in the past and my life today just blazes by it's so fast
I gotta stop and take a minute
Gotta stop and take a second or I might forget it
Poof.. Gone.. Oh oh!
That's why I write a song
Thats why I put these lyrics together and put em in the mix and whatever, you think it's a hit, then you enjoy it
Ultimately, I'm livin' life high up on the balcony
The skyline is so comforting to me
I want a sweet woman to share my life
I want a sweet woman to call my wife
Now I don't think I'll have all these kids or that white picket fence or whatever she said But I, wanna turn this house into a home
these thoughts and I are alone Girl, just make yourself known, lets go!
Chorus X 9
Here's to the new you And here's to the new us
There is a definitely reminiscing of the past during his one and only verse in the song, but it definitely shifts to the future as the song progresses. Most of the song is about what he still wants and is looking for. Maybe it wasn’t what he thought it was going to be back in the day. Like having a house with a white picket fence and kids. He still wants the basics things from finding someone special and the idea that the door hasn't been shut in that part of his life. I feel very much the same when it comes to this.
My favorite part of the song is towards the end when my cousin toasts to the new you and to the new us. He nailed it. I need to toast to the new me and the new possibility of what could come my way in the future.
There is an inspirational message that I saw on the internet that has been helping me over the last month or so when dealing with being ok with all of this love life business that I’m changing up.
This message has been keeping me moving forward knowing that there is someone else out there waiting to meet someone just like me and I to them. Yeah this message is hope and faith, but I much rather hold on to that than keep doing the same thing I have been doing over and over expecting different results. Because we know what that looks like...
So, that is me and what I'm working on. That whole process of rewriting some of that inner dialog I have with myself and opening up myself for greater things, and overall just making a better me.
Till then I find that person I will dream of you and wonder if you feel it too....
As always I bring this to you with love and pure D-lite. = )
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