Life Through Movies: “Gravity”

So, I’m going to take a moment to switch things up and talk about a movie instead of a song this week because the movie that I saw last Monday got me thinking more than any song I have played for myself this week. It left me with much to think about after I left the movie theater.

I remember seeing the movie trailer for this movie a few months back when I went to see some other movie over the summer. I was instantly hooked. The trailer, for those that have not seen it, was very short and very intense. It showcased the main part of the movie which is being in space and things go very very wrong. Then the trailer just ends with the main character spinning out into the blackness of space while she calls for help. 

There is a lot about this trailer that put me on edge and made me very uncomfortable, 

Something in me said you should see this movie and face some of the things the trailer brought up in me. There is a lot about space that amazes me and interests me, but most of all there is so much about space that freaks me the F@#$ out. I’m afraid of heights for one and just the thought of floating above the planet earth makes me even more nervous than jumping out of a plane with a parachute. Not to mention the thought of spinning out into space and being helpless to control anything while you wait to die is definitely a very scary thought to me. 

Well, the time came and the movie was released into the theaters. My mom actually asked me if I would be interested in seeing the movie before I had a chance to ask her. Which kind of surprised me, I mean we actually go to see a lot of movies together, but I didn’t think that she would be interested in this movie. I immediately said yes to her and we figured out a time to go. My sister Paula ended up coming along with us as well which was a pleasant surprise.

I saw the movie in 3-D and I suggest that you do to if you plan to go see this movie. Why, you may ask? Well, the 3-D is no gimmick in this movie and is very important part of being involved in the movie. Because the 3-D is so good it really puts you there with the main character as she experiences a day in space that I could only imagine happening through the movie screen. 

There was definitely moments I held my breath, squirmed in my seat, and wanted to look away from the screen, but I force myself to be engaged for the whole movie. I really tried to put myself in her place as she dealt with a number of problems from the tragic events that happened while she is in space. Not to mention all the intense human emotion that she went through while trying to stay alive during the movie. 

One scene that best showed the fragile side of being human for me was when she finally makes it back into the main space station. Then right inside of the door she came through she pulls off her suit and floats in mid air into kind of a fetal position as she kind of takes a second to rest. I mean prior to that scene she was all over the place trying to just stay alive, but when she came into the main space station with a second to breathe she instantly goes back into that position that we know so well from our time spent in our mother’s womb. That place that we know as a safe place. Maybe she was trying to put herself to sleep so she could wake up from the bad dream she was having. I know I would have tried. 

The other things I wanted to mention about the movie was the presence of the other survivor that helped her to keep going even when all hope seemed to be lost. I love that drive that us humans are capable to have when we are put in the hardest situations.

It was truly amazing what she was able to do even if it was mostly movie magic. I don’t know much about how the scenario would have gone in real life, but I believe that the movie is actually pretty close to what would actually happen.   

What I took away from the movie as my mother and sister talk about afterwards over dinner was just how humbling of a movie it was. It made me really appreciate my life. I’m so lucky to have the life that I do. I’m so very lucky to be on this earth and not up there in the sky dealing with life or death problems. I mean think about your worst day at work or even in life in general. There isn’t much on a typical “bad day” for the rest of us that compares to what this woman went through in this movie. It also gives me much more respect to those that are up in space and have jobs that even have the possibility of any thing remotely happening like the events in this movie. 

Humbling it is and makes me want to kiss the ground below my feet. This is a movie I think everyone should experience at least once with the 3-D theater experience to get the full effect. It is definitely not a movie I will really watch more than once especially if it isn’t in 3-D, but I’m so very glad I took a moment to experience it.

As always I bring this to you with love and pure D-lite. = )

Life Through Music: “I Don’t Know” by Jason Heine

So, for all those that have been following my blog for a while you may have noticed that it takes me awhile to get some messages or lessons through my thick skull sometimes. Sometimes it even takes quite a few songs to get it to sink in and stay. So, keeping with last weeks trend I’m sticking with changing the way I look at things in the love department for myself. The process of switch gears from not what’s happened in the past, but instead focusing on what possibilities lie ahead of me. The possibilities of what can happen in the future can be very exciting. 

I remember the first time I heard this song called “I Don’t Know” by my cousin Jason Heine. I was listening to my cousin stream a slow jam DJ set on his TwitchTV channel when in the mix he slipped this song in without any warning. I instantly froze and listened to the song very intently. I did pick up my phone during the song and text my cousin some strong profanities (in a jokingly manor) about him keeping this song from me. Why did I do this? Because over the years I have been lucky enough to be one of the people that gets early listens to many of his creations. This was not one of those songs though. This song he hid from me and with good reason. This song was special and even he knew that. I instantly fell in love with this song and I had many great things to say to him about this song. Lucky for me it was included on the CD he put out last year entitled Nothing Last Forever. I only had to wait a few long months after he previewed it before I could play it over and over as much as I wanted to. Oh and once I got the CD I definitely did. 

That was many months ago and I have been hiding this song from you just as my cousin did. With good reason of course. I needed the right time to let it really have an impact on me so I could explain why this song means so much to me. Jason’s last album really is some of his best work yet. It has been a very landmark album in his music career. But beyond the great music he made the song touched me in many other ways. 

Fast forward to this week. I added this song into the mix of songs that is forging me ahead into new territory with myself. I know much history behind what this song is about in detail for my cousin because I know my cousin well, but that information doesn’t need to be told. What is more important when talking to him about this song we both agreed its about asking to let go of the past and opening up room for the new to come into our lives. When interviewing him about his album we definitely were in the same place in life with ourselves in this regard. 

As you get older the things about having a special someone become much different from when we were younger. It’s more about having a companion or a partner to share life’s moments with. Sure you want to be attracted to them and all that good stuff, but the real heart of it is finding someone that really just enjoys you. I know that sounds so simple to say, but it’s true. That is all you really need and that's what I’m on the hunt for now. 

Now for the lyrics:

Jason Heine: "I Don't Know" 2012 Nothing's Forever

Chorus X 1: I just wanna be with you

At night I dream of you I wonder if you feel it to girl but I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know

Verse: But you wouldn't, believe all these memories

that I got locked in these tapes with these 8 millameters

 You wouldn't believe the outtakes 

You wouldn’t believe the cakes we would eat on these holidays

 So here I am straight livin' in the past and my life today just blazes by it's so fast

 I gotta stop and take a minute 

Gotta stop and take a second or I might forget it 

Poof.. Gone.. Oh oh! 

That's why I write a song 

Thats why I put these lyrics together and put em in the mix and whatever, you think it's a hit, then you enjoy it

 Ultimately, I'm livin' life high up on the balcony

 The skyline is so comforting to me

 I want a sweet woman to share my life

 I want a sweet woman to call my wife

 Now I don't think I'll have all these kids or that white picket fence or whatever she said But I, wanna turn this house into a home

 these thoughts and I are alone Girl, just make yourself known, lets go!

Chorus X 9

Here's to the new you And here's to the new us

There is a definitely reminiscing of the past during his one and only verse in the song, but it definitely shifts to the future as the song progresses. Most of the song is about what he still wants and is looking for. Maybe it wasn’t what he thought it was going to be back in the day. Like having a house with a white picket fence and kids. He still wants the basics things from finding someone special and the idea that the door hasn't been shut in that part of his life. I feel very much the same when it comes to this. 

My favorite part of the song is towards the end when my cousin toasts to the new you and to the new us. He nailed it. I need to toast to the new me and the new possibility of what could come my way in the future.

There is an inspirational message that I saw on the internet that has been helping me over the last month or so when dealing with being ok with all of this love life business that I’m changing up.

This message has been keeping me moving forward knowing that there is someone else out there waiting to meet someone just like me and I to them. Yeah this message is hope and faith, but I much rather hold on to that than keep doing the same thing I have been doing over and over expecting different results. Because we know what that looks like...

So, that is me and what I'm working on. That whole process of rewriting some of that inner dialog I have with myself and opening up myself for greater things, and overall just making a better me. 

Till then I find that person I will dream of you and wonder if you feel it too....

As always I bring this to you with love and pure D-lite. = )

Life Through Music: “Everywhere” by Fleetwood Mac

So, I have to confess that I lied to you. Last week when I said that I was listening to “Free” by Krista Herring a lot during that week it was true, but there was a song that definitely overshadowed her song. There is a song that I have been listening to a lot over the last month or so. So, much in fact that I dare not even try to count how many times I have played this song in the past few weeks. The song is called “Everywhere” by Fleetwood Mac. There are a few reasons that this song stood out to me when I heard it for the first time not to long ago. 

I was at work when I heard this song playing over the speaker system and I was instantly hooked.  See, there is a Fleetwood Mac station that plays on the Pandora overhead music at work. I’m normally okay with this station being played except for the song “Landslide” being played over and over. This night was different because Pandora was playing many of Fleetwood Mac’s hits that I hadn’t heard much at work. 

As I’m enjoying the music I was also hit with a memory associated with this song. It always amazes me the power that sounds and smells have when being connected to our memories. Hearing this song took me right back to a road trip to Canada that I took with my dad when I was I believe eight years old. My dad was always listening to music and he often would make new mixed tapes to play whenever we went on long trips. This song by Fleetwood Mac was definitely on one of those tapes he brought with us on our road trip to Canada. What an awesome memory to have that is connected to my father. I can still picture in my head looking out the window at the state of Washington and Canadian landscapes while listening to this song. I also know there was definitely some Gordon Lightfoot on those tapes as well which was fitting because he was from Canada. The beginning of this month was my fathers birthday and of course I have been missing more than usual. So, this was definitely a nice memory to have during this part of the year.  Oh dad...thank you so much for the gift of music. 

The other reason I connected myself to this song is just the over all message I took out of the song which has been very similar to how I have been feeling of late. I have really just been trying to be okay with being alone. By that just allowing things to flow again. I have had some tugs on my line, but no real bites. No one that is willing to step up to the plate for real and take a swing. At the same time I have also been trying to rewrite some bad internal dialog with myself as well. The things that have happened to me in the past are not my whole story. That is what I have been trying to get through to myself for quite sometime. I have to continue to remember that and stop getting stuck playing the victim role over and over in my head. I will find something that serves me and someone that I can be everywhere with. Before you all think I’m a stalker by connecting “everywhere” to being withsome I mean more like “every way”. Like being with someone in all aspects off a relationship. No more of this touch and go stuff of the past. 

Can you hear me calling

Out your name

You know that I'm falling

And I don't know what to say

I'll speak a little louder

I'll even shout

You know that I'm proud

And I can't get the words out

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

(Wanna be with you everywhere)

Something's happening

Happening to me

My friends say I'm acting peculiarly

C'mon baby

We better make a start

You better make it soon

Before you break my heart

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

(Wanna be with you everywhere)

Can you hear me calling

Out your name

You know that I'm falling

And I don't know what to say

Come along baby

We better make a start

You better make it soon

Before you break my heart

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

Oh I...

I want to be with you everywhere

(Wanna be with you everywhere)

So, there you have it. This is the real song that has been running through my head of late. There has been many more though and will be coming to a blog entry here soon. Hope you are doing well and listening to some music. Got to love building memories. 

As always I bring this to you with love and pure D-lite. = ) 

Life Through Music: "Free" by Krista Herring

The further and further I go down the journey I have chosen for myself I get more and more wonderful surprises that add to my life. This week's proof of this is in a wonderful song that led me to meet another beautiful person on this planet.

See, I found her through a Facebook friend's post. I realized quickly that she shops at my work and I had already seen her many times before. Since then I have been quietly following her music from behind the scenes. It wasn't till she sent me a thank you e-mail for my donation to her kick-starter for her new album that I got to start a conversation with her. It was then I started to actually get to know the person that moved me through their own music. What an awesome thing right? I told her that hearing the song "Free" made me realize right away that she is one of my people. By that I mean she is one of those people on this planet that is very awake to life and more importantly love. 

She recently gave me a copy of her last album that has this track on it. I went to listen to the whole cd, but I kept going back to this track. I eventually put this song on repeat for quite awhile so I could really absorb it. It's just so beautiful all around. I can't say enough about how much this song moved me.  

Recently she opened up to me about how the song came about. It was created during a heavier and darker part of her life. She was dealing with a divorce and all that comes along with it. The beauty of the song as I told her is that we all can relate to going through similar times in our lives. Also, this song to me shows both sides of the tunnel. Its both the dark part at the beginning of the tunnel and all the way to when you see the light at the other end. 

Free

 In my life 

There’ve been times 

When I couldn’t breathe 

Truths I just couldn’t see 

And the light fell from my eyes 

But in time 

I grew tired of all these games 

Couldn’t take any more pain 

So one day I made up my mind. 

I am free 

No one is holding me down 

Angel child, 

If you’re feeling all alone 

Go inside to find your home 

Cause no one can bring you your joy 

Maybe try not to think about what is missing 

Just become that which you seek. 

And life will become beautiful. 

You are free

No one is holding you down

You can run if you please

If you fall to your knees

You’ll find a way off the ground 

Everyone falls sometimes

Everyone sees the night

The pain was designed to direct us inside

And happiness is something you have to decide.

Gotta know your own mind 

Not till then will you find 

That you were the one in control all the time. 

You were free.

I really think that her lyrics speak for themselves so I chose not to jump in with my own thoughts this time. I really love every single word in this song and agree with my whole heart. 

Even better news is that she is currently working hard in the studio on a new cd. I'm super excited to see where she can go from here. When talking to her about the new album she says that it will have a much more positive and uplifting vibe to it in comparison to her last cd. Well, I like what I have heard so far so let the music and love keep flowing because you just never know what you might invite into your life.

Do you feel free? 

As always I bring this to you with so much love and pure D-lite. = )

If you want more info on Krista Herring here is her main website.
http://www.kristaherring.com/fr_home.cfm