Life Through Music:”Paralyzed” by Angels and Airwaves

Before I get into the entry I wrote for New Year's Eve I have to add a bit of back story that happen before I was able to post it. The added information is that on my bike ride to work New Year's Eve day I hit a very large ice patch on the road and took a nasty spill. Lucky for myself it could have been much much worse. I got quite a few bruises and scratches from the crash, but remained mostly intact. I did however hit my thumb during the crash in a way that fracture it. So for the last week I have had a splint on my arm that had made my life very restrictive. Hence the reason I didn't post this entry till now.

So when I talk below of my disgust towards the year 2014 it will make more sense knowing that on the very last day of that horrible year, 2014 took one more jab at me on its way out the door. I will not give in though. 2015 will be a better year come hell or high water. Now on to the regularly scheduled program. = )

*Gives 2014 a good long stare down and says* “I have tried all year to like you and although there was moments throughout the year that were good, overall you suck and I’m done with you. 

I have already stressed my dislike for 2014 on many occasion, but this will be my last hurrah on the subject before I move on to 2015. 

I remember quite vividly how much I wanted to make 2014 such a great year. I was in such a great place with myself at the beginning of last year and so ready to take on 2014 in a big way. Looking back I remember how good I felt about all parts of my life even up to the week before my mother died. I remember expressing much of that feeling even in the blog entry I wrote a week before my mother died. 

Instead 2014 was a year of much loss and heartbreak for myself. I mean the FIRST month into the new year and I lose one of the biggest parts of my life when I lost my mother. Talk about one way to really throw everything out of synch.

I can tell you from my experience grief is a nasty thing because there is no telling what it will do to your life and or where it will take you emotionally. In many ways you are paralyzed to do anything about it and you just have to move through it. It’s like being on a roller coaster that you have no idea when you will slow down or even if it will ever get off of it. That is what 2014 has been for me. This year has been a very paralyzing and crippling year for myself especially when referring to my health progress. 

My mother’s death stopped me dead in my tracks and derailed me in the true sense of the word. I haven’t really felt like myself this whole year. I have been way off track with everything that I was doing so great with prior to my mom’s death. It’s been so hard for someone who needs to push forward to allow something else( in this case grief) to take the wheel and control where I go in my life. Someone who thrives on making progress. Instead grief has been directing my life much to my dismay. 

All year I have felt like I have been trying to get back to those tracks that I got derailed from at the beginning of last year. All efforts to do so have made minimal impact. It has only been in the last week or so that I have even really started to feel like myself again and that gives me the much needed strength to push forward to reclaim more of me. 

I myself have spent 2014 paralyzed which is all part of the process when dealing with grief. I’m starting to see more light at the end of the tunnel. The song I picked for this blog entry is from one of the most influential bands of the last ten years of my life. The band is called Angels and Airwaves. This band helped me through much of the grief that surrounded my fathers death as well. They also helped me push forward and find a person within myself that at the time I didn’t even know was there.

The specific song that I chose by this band to connect to my reflection of 2014 is called “Paralyzed” by Angels and Airwaves. It comes off their latest album that was released in December. It was the first single released for the album and to be honest it took awhile to really connect to me. As I have been reflecting over the last week of the year tying to think of how I think of this year as a whole it started to make a lot of sense. So lets go to the lyrics.

“Paralyzed” by Angels and Airwaves

I wake to a fire in the day

A little lion safe and sound

It's a wild life, so wild, crazy

Cannot tame the crowd

Like beast in the hole, you're MIA

A little hell, you're gonna pay

You're whole at home, a telephone

The king that's here to say

Sleep and awaking to life, for a hell of a ride

Sleep and awaking to life, with your hands at your side, paralyzed

Paralyzed, paralyzed, paralyzed

(I think the chorus is what I connect to the most because it really says it all when it comes to dealing with grief. The feelings of being helpless and paralyzed.)

Out cold in the gentle rain, it's dark

A little lying set your fire

Push away and go, the stereo

A tear ruled death to part

19 with a wicked MRE

What a waste, a memory

Got a steady heart, you played your part

And now get down to the sea

Sleep and awaking to life, for a hell of a ride

Sleep and awaking to life, with your hands at your side

It's more the same, a silly old shame

A dimly lit road, it will wither and go

I climb the light post, illuminate the road

For miles away, so safely on your way

(I will find that light within myself that I lost sight of and light the road that I now take to a different and new destination.) 

Sleep and awaking to life, for a hell of a ride

Sleep and awaking to life, with your hands at your side

(One of the most powerful things that death and grief can remind you of is that we are here to live life to the fullest. That life is short and precious. It reminds us what the really important things are in life.)

Sleep and awaking to life, for a hell of a ride

Sleep and awaking to life, with your hands at your side, paralyzed

Paralyzed, paralyzed, paralyzed.

As I move into 2015 I will try again to start the year with such great hopes and aspirations. I won’t give up and I will try my best to make this new year the best that I can. It has to get better right? 

I wish you all the best this coming year whether or not you had a great year or bad year like myself. Life can be really rough and truly amazing. It’s up to us to make sure we make the most of it all. 

As always I send this to you with so much love and pure D-lite. = )

BONUS: I thought I would share the text message that my mother sent my siblings and myself last New Years Eve after the ball dropped. It goes as follows:

“HAPPY WISHES FOR THE NEW YEAR MY CURTAIN CLIMBERS! LOVE U ALL! : D”

LOVE

Life Through Music: “Christmas Without You” by Onerepublic

It’s gone. 

That’s right I have lost my Christmas spirit. For someone that has always loved this time of year very much I never thought it was possible, but it happened. Unfortunately the reason for this has to do with the loss of the one person that instilled my Christmas spirit. I’m of course talking about my mother who is no longer here on this earth with us anymore. She loved this time of year so much I couldn’t help but follow in her footsteps since she was the guiding light that built a great love for Christmas. Much has changed this year. My love for Christmas was so much until now. 

It only makes sense that my mother would love this time of year because essentially it’s a season of giving to others. My mother was the best example I had in my life that showed me the joys of giving to others.That is still one of my favorite things about my mother that I love so much. She love the whole process of giving gifts. From trying to figure out the right present for each person to the reaction of the person when receiving the gift. Last Christmas I think she did the best she ever did with giving presents to everyone that was present at our last Christmas. It was almost as if she new it was going to be her last Christmas. It’s just amazes me when I look back at just how much she loved giving.  She just loved giving with or without money. She always gave more than she had and with so much love. 

This is the first Christmas season without my mother and to be quite frank its ruined everything for me as far as getting into the holiday spirit. I just can’t do it without her and it kills me to say that. It’s true that as you get older Christmas loses much of it’s magic and Christmas has been very different for me for a long time. I have, however, taken the time over the years to try to make it my own again. Losing my mother has been so much more difficult than any obstacle that I have ever encountered when that spirit will ever be back.

I didn’t just give up on getting swept away by the holiday season coming into this Christmas season. I have definitely made efforts to spark that Christmas spirit and all attempts have failed. I have been enjoying Christmas music (which the rest of the world hates), but I’m definitely not enjoying it like I have in years past. I want to enjoy it, but I just can’t.

It hasn’t just been me that has tried to spark the spirit within myself because lots of great people in my life have done very nice things for me, but with the same result. I really do have many good people in my life. I’m so lucky for their love, but I’m sorry it's just not enough. It's a shame too because over the last few years my family had some really great Christmases. I just have to except that this is what Christmas is for me "right now" without my mother who is my true Christmas spirit. This is not to say that it can never come back or that it’s dead forever, but for now the search begins to find a new light within myself. 

I actually have a song that goes with this feeling that I have about the loss of my mother and my Christmas spirit. This is a song that I heard last year and really fell in love with it. It was for a different reason last year that I connected to this song. This year this song has a much more powerful meaning to me that brings me to tears when I listen to it and really let my heart feel it. The song is called “Christmas Without You” by Onerepublic. This is definitely not a happy go lucky Christmas song. It’s definitely a representation of the sadder part of the holiday season. I cannot deny the impact on me when listening to it so lets go to the lyrics.

"Christmas Without You"

start of lyrics It's almost midnight, where you lay your head

But I'm calling numbers, buying plane tickets and bed

Every channel on the TV, it's a wonderful life

I don't feel so wonderful on this cold winter night

(I know the feeling and I dislike these cold winter nights.)

I missed Thanksgiving, missed a birthday or two

Didn't make St. Valentines, but I was thinking of you

Only one thing in the world, I couldn't do

Only one thing could kill me, Christmas without you

(I don’t want to have Christmas without you...)

Ooh, the snow is on the ground

The day's getting colder, I'm coming home now

So go ahead light the fire, turn that Christmas tree on

Cause I've been missing you so much I wrote you this song

Yes, I did

(I miss you so much I wrote this blog...)

I missed Thanksgiving, missed a birthday or two

Didn't make St. Valentines, but I was thinking of you

Only one thing in the world, I couldn't do

Only one thing could kill me, Christmas without you

Only one thing in the world, I couldn't do

Only one thing could kill me, Christmas without you

(Each and every other holiday and event has been so different without you...)

Oh, the presents wrapped, and 'Jingle Bells' on the radio

I'm turning down the street, there's no place I'd rather go

Every holiday, oh, you feel the same

Except for the ones when I'm with you

(Everything is in place, but it won’t feel the same without you. I don't know that I ever will.)

I missed Thanksgiving, I missed a birthday or two

I didn't make St. Valentines, but I was thinking of you

Only one thing in the world, that I couldn't do

There's only one thing that kills me, Christmas without you end of lyrics

(Christmas without you.)

So, I’m sorry if I’m a bit of a downer lately and if I retract myself from the holiday season or just life in general. This is how it has to be for me for now. Thank you for all the love that each one of you have shown me over this tough year because it hasn’t gone unnoticed. I have needed every single ounce of extra love because my mothers love is hard to replace. Thank you for your patients and support. I have great people in my life that give me many great reasons to be her in this life.

For now I’m trapped in a bad Hallmark Christmas movie without a happy ending...

As always I send this to you with so much love and pure D-lite. = )

Life Through Music-"Hedegraad" Featuring Lukas Grahan (Happy Home)

The holiday season always makes me think of the idea of home. For me home is that place that you hold as your space in this world. This above all things has always been very important to me. A place that no matter the world that is going on around you it’s that space that you hold that you can be yourself in the center of this craziness we call life. 

Home has always been a focus for me for as long as I can remember. Life is a very crazy thing that is always throwing something new at you because it’s rapidly changing. The only way that I have been able to deal with life’s changes all these years is having a stable place that I can center myself. This importance of a happy home has become more relevant to me as I have gotten older and especially now that I’m without both of my parents. They say that home is where your heart is and my heart has become the most important thing that I have in this world. Therefore, home has just as much importance in my life as I move forward. 

I was lucky as a child growing up because I always had a stable place I called home. It wasn’t always easy or perfect, but my mother worked hard to maintain a stable home as much as possible. When I look back I remember a wonderful home that I was a part of. When I was old enough to move out of my mother’s home and out into the world I took many of the things that I had learned growing up to instill that same greatness in my own space. 

In the time that I have live on my own I have been very fortunate to have had only two roommates. I have escaped all the horror stories I have heard of what it’s like when a situation with a roommate can go bad. My first roommate was my older sister that I have always had a strong connection with throughout my life. After our first round of living together we took quite a few years living apart from each other before we decided to move in together again. This time around I’m even more thankful than I was the first time that we lived together. Life is quite a bit different for both of us than it was when we last lived together. This time around we have helped to recenter and support each other. This kind of stability has been much needed for us both during this tough year of 2014.

I know I have mentioned it before, but to be more direct 2014 for me has been a shit storm of bad things that have happened in my life. Truthfully I can’t wait for this year to be over. 

Don’t get me wrong there has been some great moments and events that have been sprinkled throughout this year that have made life more tolerable. One of those wonderful moments came over the summer when I moved back in with my sister. In fact moving back in with my sister went so well it kind of scared both of us. Like we were still looking over our shoulders waiting for something to go wrong. So far the second time around living with each other is going great. Well, other than me eating to much of certain foods of my sisters on occasion and my struggle to get my sister to unload the dishwasher more than she does currently because she despises unloading the dishwasher. Overall though I couldn’t be more happy with the place that I currently call home. 

The song I picked to accompany this topic of home is a song that a good friend send me a while ago and probably thought I forgot all about it. Well, I didn’t forget about it. Sometimes it just takes me a little while to come around to getting to it. I love when others share music with me and especially when those songs hit the right note that strikes an emotion within myself. The song is called “Hedegaard”(Happy Home) featuring Lukas Graham. Lukas Graham is a Danish musical group consisting of Lukas Graham Forchhammer (vocals), Mark Falgren (drums), Magnus Larsson (bass) and Kasper Daugaard (keyboard). You read it right. LOOK OUT! Derrick Heine is now going international with my music selections. The version I first heard was the one that I will post on this entry right above the lyrics. I love this version of the song because there is such an uplifting big sound that the song holds and the live version helps build on that feeling. Really the song speaks for it’s self so lets go to the lyrics. 

Happy Home

Mama called about the paper turns out they wrote about me

Now my broken heart´s the only thing that's broke about me

(I have had much heart break this year for sure.)

So many people should have seen what we got going on

I only wanna put my heart and my life in songs

(Well, not in songs, but I do put a lot into these blog entries.)

Writing about the pain I felt with my daddy gone

(Yeah I definitely do. Some you have seen and some you haven’t.)

About the emptiness I felt when I sat alone

(Yes, I know this well.)Thankfully it’s not as often as it use to be.

About the happiness I feel when I sing it loud

(Yes, when I really let the music push that what’s in me out into the world I feel amazing. I do this mostly when others are not around though.)

He should have heard the noise we made with the happy crowd

Did my grandaddy know he taught me what a poem was

How you can use a sentence or just a simple pause

(We talked about this a lot in my public speaking class. How important and powerful a pause can be.)

What will I say when my kids ask me who my daddy was

I thought about it for a while and I'm at a loss

(I think about this a lot and I too am at a loss much of the time. Not just with my father, but my mother now as well.)

Knowing that I´m gonna live my whole life without him

I found out a lot of things I never knew about him

(I know I couldn’t have had them forever, but both left my life too early. It’s sad how much more I learned about them after they passed away.)

All I know is that I´ll never really be alone

Cause we gotta lot of love and a happy home

(Because of things that both my parents instilled in me I will always work hard to keep a happy home.)

Magazines are writing stuff but I don´t ever read them

Some of the folks I used to know would see and start believing

That I would pass them by on streets and never reach to greet them

I still remember folks even though I rarely meet them

Don´t you know I miss the times when we used to hang

(I think about those that have come in and out of my life more than I share. I reminisce about both current people in my life and people of the past people that have touched my life. I really hope they all are doing so well.)

Before twenty deep depended on a single man

Before a single heart was broken by a single blow

(This is how I have always been even before my heart was broken with “two” heavy blows to my heart.)

Before all our careers depended on a single show

I grew up with a lot of love in a happy home

(Yes, I did.)

Now I got a lot of cash and I'm on a road

I realize privacy´s becoming difficult

It´s all right now but what about when I´m old

I know my good friends now they´ll last

the same ones that stood by me when my daddy past

(I really have such a great core of friends and they continue to grow. This was proven to me very blatantly when each one of my parents passed on. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Great friendship is one of the greatest gifts in life.)

All I know is that we´ll never really be alone

Cause we got a lot of love and a happy home

I write a lot of songs will anybody ever read them

(I will never be alone that I know. I do hope my words written transcend both time and space.)

You hear them on the radio but will you really read them

Why do we have our idols and why do we wanna be them

After we see them on TV we really wanna meet them

Don´t you think they miss the time when they used to hang

Before a fan base depended on a single man

Before a single heart was broken by a single show

Who´s gonna stand who´s gonna fall I really wanna know

(Some people come and some people go.)

I grew up with a lot of love in a happy home

My daddy use to play me vinyl but now daddy´s gone

(Yes, he did and it was one of the greatest things I loved about my father. I truly think he was the best version of himself when he was behind the turntable doing what he loved the most. Thank you for sharing that with me dad.)

I used to practice with my mommy on the piano

I still get nervous every time I know she´s at a show

Now my family comes first before everyone

I had the perfect dad I wanna be the perfect son

(Both my mother and my father did their best to be as good of a parent as they could or knew how to. I think I turned out pretty well so I can’t complain. I try my best to be the best son and person that I can be.)

Though I really feel sometimes I am on my own

I know I got a lot of love and a happy home

So, my message to you this holiday season is as you make your way through the craziness that is the holidays please make sure you take the time to appreciate what it is that makes the core or the home of your life. This is important for many reasons, but especially because you never know how life will change your life in a heartbeat. I love you all and I hope you are taking excellent care of yourselves.

As always I send this to you with so much love and pure D-lite. = )

Life Through Music: “The Winter Song” by The Head and The Heart

It’s been long enough now that I should break the silence that is me in the fall. I need to get some of my thoughts out of my head. It’s been tough to find the right words lately because I’m experiencing such a range of emotions. During the autumn I always find myself going inward and very self reflective. I guess it makes sense to do this since we are in the final days of the year of 2014. Oh and what a weird year it has been for me at least, I can’t speak for you. It is true that life does not really care about the time frames that we put on life such as these things called “years”. For me having years is a good way to manage keeping things fresh for myself. Every year is a clean slate to do what you will with it. Well, the last few months have given me much to think about when it comes to how this year has gone. What things I like about this year and what things I want to do differently for next year. Those things will come out over time in my writings I’m sure. For now lets get to some music that has helped me through this process of late. 

I believe I may have picked this song before in years passed. I should probably pick it at some point because it just embodies the feeling I have right now and always during the fall months of each year. The song that I’m picking is a song by one of my favorite bands The Head and The Heart and it is called “The Winter Song”. It’s a song that invokes such melancholy for myself. Such sweet harmonies that carry such a simple song of reflection and a bit of hope for the future as well. Lets get to the lyrics.

"Winter Song"

Tell me somethin', give me hope for the night

We don't know how we feel

We're just prayin' that we're doin' this right

Though that's not the way it seems

(Life can be rough and hard to understand just how we feel at times. Sometimes you just have to hope that you are doing things to the best of your ability and let the rest fall into place.)

Summer gone, now winter's on its way

I will miss the days we had

The days we had

I will miss the days we had

The days we had

Oh, I'll miss the days we had

(Yes, summer is finally gone here in the Pacific northwest and I will miss the days we had for sure. I will miss many days I had with those that are no longer here as well.)

Loving, leaving, it's too late for this now

Such esteem for each has gone

Has time driven our season away?

Cause that's the way it seems

In the world of the speech that is new

(Life is full of love and leaving. It’s up to us to make the most of the time we have. The times we have.)

I'll be back again to stay

Again to stay

I'll be back again to stay

Again to stay

I'll be back again to stay

( And so the cycle continues. One ending is just the beginning of another. This year will end soon and a new one will begin.)

One of my favorite things about the band The Head and The Heart is that there music seems so down to earth. There harmonies are so fun to sing along with and I do often. This song I picked in particular is one that my sister and I love to sing along with when we are together. 

I hope that you are enjoying the season and taking the time to enjoy the little & big things that pass by so quickly. 

As always I bring this to you with so much love and pure D-lite. = )

Life Through Music: “Lost On My Way Home” by Chromeo

It’s the line that ever single person or person that has gotten dumped never likes hearing. That line goes as follows, “It takes time.” *long sigh* God, I’m so tired of this line. Even if I know that it is the truest statement when it comes to getting over situations like breakups and or being single. I still don’t like hearing it. Time is truly the only helpful thing we all know that, but it still stings to hear it. I know that everyone that has said this line to me over the course of my life has said it to me with as much love as it can possibly hold, but regardless it still hurts to hear it. Lately I have decided that instead of hearing it from everyone else I know, I found a song that has hammered down this phrase in my mind pretty clearly. It also came along with some other helpful words that have moved my mind in a better direction when dealing with my latest breakup. 

The song I picked this week is from a band that has been showing up on my music radar, on and off, over the past few years. I first heard about the band from my two cousins Jason and Kyle while in conversation during a video game session online a while back. The way they talked about the group, in that conversation, made me think that I would probably like them as well. They both have similar music taste to my own and so I added it to my “Must check out” music list. 

It took me a while to check them out though, but recently I finally jumped in to the world of the band that is called Chromeo. My pick for this week is the first song that I fell in love with immensely from the group. I have played it over and over many times since I heard it a few weeks ago. I just can’t seem to get enough of it. I’m trying to think of how to best describe their music sound. It’s definitely very electronic sounding with a bit of 80‘s dance vibe with a splash of modern day sound. Its definitely right up my alley of the music I love these days.

The specific song that I picked from Chromeo for this week’s song of the week is called “Lost On My Way Home.” This song, like last week, has a chorus and a bridge that are the parts of the song that I connected with the most. There is some other parts in the song that I can relate to as well so lets get to those lyrics.

Lyrics:

"Lost On The Way Home"

(feat. Solange)

[Interlude 1 - Solange:]

Who's gonna to have your time, when it's down to the minute? (Baby)

Who's gonna have your time?

Who's gonna have your back, when the shove comes a pushin'? (Uh, Ooh Baby)

Who's gonna have your back?

[Verse 1 - Dave 1:]

I know you do

I'm pretty sure you had it since I've met you

I listen to you talk, and it's like you forgetin' about all the bullshit that we've been through

But I've paid my dues, whatever you choose

I took the burden off of you too

I don't know why it's such a struggle to make you come around to my point of view

(She made a choice and therefore I made my own chices accordingly. We will probably never see eye to eye on what happened and that is just the way it is.)

[Bridge - Solange:]

And I know it's gonna take time

But you know that I care

But baby I know it's gonna take time

But you know that I'm there

And when it gets down to it

(When it gets down to it I do care. We both do. It couldn’t have gone any other way unfortunately. It’s a shame.)

[Chorus - Dave 1:]

I can never leave I'm too proud

I've got my mind made up, my feet on the ground

When you're up all night and you never make a sound

Where I'm not too far if you look around

(It’s hard to let go of something that from “my point of view” was something so close to what I want in a connection with someone in my love life. The harsh reality is even as great as it was it was still missing a few key pieces to the puzzle.)

[Interlude 2 - Solange:]

Who's gonna have your right, when your left needs leanin'? (Ooh Baby)

Who's gonna take your side?

Who's gonna hold you down, when your heart beat's beatin'?

Ooh Baby You Know

[Verse 2 - Dave 1:]

I know it's you

That's no excuse

And we can't go back, cause there's no pact and there's no truce

In other words, it's just no use

I told you first, when you know the truth

I know you're thirsty for a change, 

but nothing can arrange the strangeness that we're goin' through

(It’s true we can’t go back. What is done is done and we both have to live with our decisions. I am thirsty for change. I do crave a different outcome than the ones I have gotten in my love life of late and I will find it. So strange how life is sometimes.)

[Bridge - Solange:]

And I know it's gonna take time

But you know that I care

But baby I know it's gonna take time

But you know that I'm there

And when it gets down to it

(The dreaded line...”I know it’s going to take time...” Yes, I know time is the only true healer of the heart. Not just with my love life, but many other things in life.) 

[Chorus - Dave 1:]

I can never leave I'm too proud

I've got my mind made up, my feet on the ground

(I can be very stubborn about my decisions too.)

When you're up all night and you never make a sound

Where I'm not too far if you look around

(Oh, I’m around alright. I’m not going anywhere.)

[Bridge - Solange:]

And I know it's gonna take time

But you know that I care

But baby I know it's gonna take time

But you know that I'm there

And when it gets down to it

[Outro - Dave 1:]

We had much of everything

Your touch was everything

Went dutch on everything

But got lost on the way home

We had much of everything

Your touch was everything

Went dutch on everything

But got lost on the way home

Lost on the way home [x7]

(It was short, I know. It’s true that it could have been worse if we had gone further down the line that's for sure, but I loved so much what we had for a second. We couldn’t find our way home though however and so it fizzled out as quickly as it began. My search continues, however, for more of what I found with you. Better yet, something even more. Something that will last.)

Well, I think that about sums it up. This song has been the song that has gotten me up and out of my bed the last few weeks. It has helped me move forward and I will lean on this song till I no longer need it. It does help that it has a great groove to the song that I can dance to so it’s not a song to keep me down. 

It may seem weird to have a short connection in my love life affect me so much, but this is really a blog entry about more than that one connection. It's really about the past few situations that I have had to get over in my love life. It's a love connection pile up that I intend to move past and on to better things. 

The weird twist to this last connection that I’m writing about was that one of the factors that led to her to change her mind about being with me was because she knew the person that I have written about many times before in this blog. The one I speak of is the woman that had haunted me for 10 years. And even though that said person didn’t know that she affected my last love connection, in round about way she did in fact help ruin a potential connection with someone I really liked. Damn that woman. I can’t say it enough...STAY THE HELL OUT OF MY LIFE.

But as always, my lovely peoples, I send this to you with so much love and pure D-lite. = ) Take care.