Many years ago someone I was dating referred to their body as their spacesuit. Back then I thought it was an odd way to think about the human body, but today I can see that it’s so true to think of your body as such. Looking back now over all the things that I have done to try to fix and repair this spacesuit I call my body I realize how much I really have done. I have probably said it too many times in this blog, but so often we forget how much we truly do from day today.
Don’t get me wrong I spent much of my youth trashing my own spacesuit because I (like many of us do) didn’t realize just how truly precious this body I have is. It truly is amazing the abuse my body has taken, but also all the amazing things I have been able to do with this spacesuit while on this planet.
The reason that I bring this up now is because recently I got another major repair to my spacesuit. A few days ago I got surgery on my right knee because of a tear in my meniscus. You may not know what that is, but honestly it doesn’t matter even if you do. Just know that my right knee hurt and was hard to use as time went on. What truly does matter is that over the last 6 months I have found the true importance of both my knees. So much of my life cannot function without the proper use of my knees.
Back in May of last year when this problem started I tried to fix my knee problem with physical therapy. All the while fighting through the pain as I tried to continue to do those physical activities that are so very important to my life. For awhile I could sort of do it, but then the pain became too much. Then it got worse because the more I used my knee the more I got punished. The last two months have been very debilitating and humbling for me as I have had to pull way back. It’s been beyond frustrating for me on many levels.
Still I kept my head up and pushed forward. I also reached out to those in my health toolbox and got things rolling to find a fix for whatever it was that was going on with my knee. Eventually after an MRI scan on my right knee I would find out that it was a tear in my meniscus. I can’t explain how much just knowing what the issue was has helped me over the last few weeks. I guess it’s just that light at the end of the tunnel that really has helped me mentally through this over the last few weeks. I had never been so excited to get a surgical procedure done. I was excited for the surgery because a big part of why my physical self could not keeping up with my mental state is that my spacesuit has been broken. Well, it’s time we get that handled because I got big plans for 2017 and beyond.
I mentioned in my end of the year review blog entry for 2016 that I was so ready to blast off last year. In many ways I did blast of into 2016 at least mentally. My body had a hard time keeping up with where my mind was taking me however and so my progress last year was kind of stunted. Well, this injury has made it so that I had to balance those two parts of myself out. So I may not be able to blast off like I tried to in the beginning of 2016, but things are still looking up. I will spend this year getting myself back up to space travel shape and go on from there.
On that note I think that the song that I’m picking to accompany this blog entry is one of my favorites. Although it isn’t a directly connected to where I’m at right now I think the song over all has the feeling of being a person of doing greater things and also understanding the process. I think it's going to be a long long time, but I am a rocket man.
“Rocket Man” by Sir Elton John
She packed my bags last night, pre-flight
Zero hour, nine AM
And I'm gonna be high as a kite by then
I miss the earth so much, I miss my wife
It's lonely out in space
On such a timeless flight
And I think it's gonna be a long, long time
Till touch down brings me 'round again to find
I'm not the man they think I am at home
Oh, no, no, no, I'm a rocket man
Rocket man burning out his fuse up here alone
Mars ain't the kind of place to raise your kids
In fact, it's cold as Hell
And there's no one there to raise them if you did
And all this science I don't understand
It's just my job five days a week
A rocket man, a rocket man
And I think it's gonna be a long, long time
I feel like a big weight has been lifted off my shoulders when I found out what it was exactly that was holding me back. Now that the surgery has been done I’m so very excited to get back to work. 2017 is looking good so far.
As always I bring this to you with so much love and pure D-lite.
