I am so blessed...

I have such great friends... I am surrounded by caring, loving, inspirational, funny, and just all around wonderful people. All throughout my life I have had a great support group. I always seem to fine quality people. It starts with my three closest buddies who are Brait (I have know since I was 4 so about 25 years), Mikey J (since 6^th grade... lets see about 16 years), and J.J.(12 years). We all have gone in and out of each others lives throughout the years, but our always there for each other. Even my mother said in a recent visit you have always had loyal friends. Through those three  people alone I have met some incredible people and have become part of their families as well. I also knew my buddy Ian Rice who pasted away  in May of 2009 for about the same time as J.J. Let me breifly introduce these guys, but honestly I could write a book on each one. 

          First off is Brait. Seems appropriate since I have know him the longest...(above and all pimped out)was my first best friend and he is truly like the older brother I never had.  His laugh is almost as contagious as mine and sounds like no other laugh you have ever hear. We could go without talking for any amount of time and pick up right were we left off. This is him in a fancy suit taken for something to do with his new company I am sure. I guess I will find out hopefully next tuesday.He has helped me move so many times, but for him its his chance to play tetris with my furniture in a u-haul truck. Its actually amusing. lol  Got much love for you brah...lol.

         Next, Mikey J...oh shit son.. (above taken while we was chilling at his parents house last time I went to visit his parents when he was not living with them) or as most call him “Jack” because his last name is Jackman. He always has been my back bone. He really stood up for me when I didn't know how. He also has always pushed me to do great things. He is a hell of a comedian. Life of the party... the ladies man. Hell of a nickname/phrase creator and joke teller. His family took me in when I truly need it. love ya man.

          Oh yes...J.J.  (above him and I at Braits wedding)well he is like my twin brother. Our lives are so similar its kinda scary. Well the early part of our lives that is. He is now married and has a wonderful family. So that is were we are different now days...lol.He is the gentleman. Caring, loving, and the great family man. I am blessed to still be a part of your life man. I know we are good support for each other. At their house I am known as Uncle D. I have posted a lot of pics of his kids and you will see more in the future.  Here is a few more good ones. 

          They are awesome kids. There is Austin (on the left) chilling on the couch with me. I caught this rare moment with him playing with his gum. He is growing up so fast. I believe he was watching Uncle D and Daddy play some video games. He has started playing video games a bit with daddy as well. Can't wait till he is holding it down with us. On the right we have Hannah who is reading me a story for a change. It was a Dr. Seus book and I was reading it to her, but when we got about half way into the book she would stop me and try to read the rest. Too cute she is. She loves books, I finally found someone that reads at the same level as me...lol. She is so much fun to be around.

Ian (above with his rico sueve senior pic) has been in and out of my life too, but always part of the circle. I really started to get to know him in the last few years he was alive. He is the nicest guy I have ever known. Here is something I wrote about him few days after he past that I just found in my phone the other day. It was something I was actually hoping to read at his funeral, but it didn't workout that way. 

A few days after Ian had left us I was reminded of text I got back around the time of Ian's death. I was sending texts out to let people know what had happened. 

I got a response back from my brother that went like this "I don't really know Ian all that well, but he is really one of the nicest guys I know." I really think that, as short as it is, is one of the best ways to describe Ian. He was the nicest most caring person I think I have ever met. I remember he came over for my birthday party sleep over. He told me he brought over  his own sheets. I was very confused and asked him why. He quickly replied. I brought them because I sweat sometimes when I sleep and I didn't want to sweat on to your couch. A small thing I know, but just a small examples of how he tried to be nice to everyone. I was privileged to have his help with moving into my apartment that I am in now about a month before he past. To which I told him many thanks and that he was a great friend. I was glad to have seen more of him in the months before he died. See there wasn't a bad bone in his body. I remember the last time we played madden and he was whooping my Heine bad. He was so apologetic. A great video game player he was. Just always fun to have around. Since his death I've thought many thoughts of Ian and so many make me smile and laugh. His mom said he was such a happy kid. I think he was a happy person in general. I'm sad because I can't have anymore years with Ian a.k.a. Rice cakes.   Wish I could have started our friendship sooner, but I feel very lucky that I had as much time as I have had with Ian. He is now the glue between the rest of us close buddies, family and everyone he touch on his time on earth. When I really get sad and miss Ian I think of what he would say. He would probably say "it's cool man don't worry about me. Live your life, enjoy a movie, play some games, and work on your madden skills." Then he would do that Ian chuckle and that huge Ian smile. Ian gave and gave. He gave me so much. Great memories, his family,inspiration for my health, and my life in general. Why does it take someones death for us to really focus on how wonderful we are. Look, Ian chose all of us for good reason. I feel lucky he chose me and so should everyone else that got to know him. Ian has reminded me to live and love. I hope when you look back at how Ian touched your life he brings up that same inspiration. It's always harder for the ones left behind. To David, Shelia, and Bri Rice I am no replacement for your the wonderful son and brother you lost, but I feel very happy to be a part of the rice's family. I love all of you as well. I will miss the physical Ian that I loved so much, but now every time I miss him I look into my heart and there he is smiling right back at me. Till we meet again my dear friend.... I love you man.

Well after that passage  I will say this...”None of us will be here forever.. and we will either have to say goodbye to others or others will have to say goodbye to us. Live life to the fullest and leave nothing on the table.” SO NEVER forget to remind those you love  that you do and NEVER hold back something you should say. For there is not always another day.  

My birthday last year which was the best one I ever had. I had all my closest buddies over for a gamer sleep over at my house. I didn't realize  at the time of how much my birthday party turned out to be a going away party. Ian past away the next month and my brother moved to Colorado just before that. One Buddy  named Chad had become a new daddy two months before and that started taking a lot of his time. As it should kids are a lot of work. J.J. who I talked about before is married with two kids. Hard to get together with him.  Brait is married and trying to get his business going. Mikey J left few months later to Washington to live with his parents. So like a lot of things in my life last year I lost many things. Which I think that I have mentioned before.  

Hold on... I am not going to end the entry like that! Just this is how my mind works. I  process lots of things as they come to me. I actually have 3 pages open with three different ideas I am trying to get out of my head before I lose them...lol. This is actually part 2 of a blog entry I wrote few weeks ago. Where I was missing my core friends. I was bit upset at plans falling through. I didn't mean to make anyone feel bad. I am a communicator. If I can't get it out some how than I will explode. You don't want that it's messy. Yes it was a big deal. I love entertaining and hosting people at my place. Plus you left me with a fair amount of sweets that I had to eat... could not let them go to waste. lol

So what I wanted to talk about in this entry is although I don't see many of my core friends there is still so many great people that have stepped in to fill those rolls and add to my huge circle of friends. Between Paula and myself we know so many people. Especially from my old circle of coworkers/friends at Coffee People. I should anyways since I worked there over 7 and ½ years...lol. I have also added my huge family I have gained by working at the Market.

So speaking of those current people in the circle of friends for me.  Few Saturdays ago,  I got invited over to Jessica and Kristin's House to have corn beef and cabbage for St. Patricks day that we all missed. Which was fucking awesome! (seen below sooooo yummy!)

My sis did good job with dessert as well. She got me something gluten free god bless my sis. Jess and Kristin are wonderful and such a great couple. (Seen  below starting from the left Kim, Jess, and then Kristin on the end)

 We spent a lot of time together last year during the summer going rafting and my sisters backyard BBQ's. They both were a part of the big rafting trip we went on last summer too! (sorry I don't have that pic on computer yet)We are also planning one again this summer...=). It was my first time being at their home and I loved it. The feeling at there home  is very warm and homey. Its full of color and character. As you will see in some of the pictures. 

They also have a Salt rock lamp which is something I was thinking about getting before I found the lamps I have now. It was nice to see one in person though its very cool.(its in the picture to the right hiding behind the table) I love light and color. If you ever come to my home those are very important things to me. My mom couldn't actually sleep here because it wasn't dark enough...lol. I think she is just like my sister. Where they need absolute darkness to sleep. Bah! No way!

Oh and one of their two cats named Henry was chilling too. The other was to scared and ran to the back bedroom, but this is Henry(shown to the left). He's awesome and reminds me of my ex's cat Kingston. Who we still call our son. That wonderful son *sniff sniff* that she took from me! lol I will most likey post some pictures of Kingston sometime as well. Henry was very friendly and funny to watch. I didn't get any pics of Kristin's wonderful dog Angel, but she is so sweet and adorable too. Anyways, we had a wonderful meal and dessert. Then just hung about. Played some Rock band. (I am bad with names, but starting on left a friend of Jess and Kristen's rocking the drums and my sister was belting it out on the mic. Even if you can see the mic she was. Great job both of you! Then Kristin on the guitar below. You rock Kristin! She is also preparing for the new karate kid coming out. Just teasing! love ya K! Get it K? lol )

 It's funny I use to be so shy when going into crowds. It would take me awhile to read the crowd and see what I could get away with as far as jokes and what part of myself I felt like sharing. Now days I am more confident. I am still bit quiet at first because I do still read people, but I feel like I am way more out going. Like I turned on a switch in my head somewhere. Usually I use to hide behind my sister or my close buddies and just follow their lead.  Not anymore motherf@#$ers!   

So what is my whole point of this entry. Even  If though things don't go as planned. Remember its life and there is other times to look forward to. Also don't forget to let those around you know how much they mean to you. We are all really blessed when we actually look and listen to the world around us. =)  Community is a wonderful thing. That's a little of that vitamin D for ya. *wink wink*

Your question is a two parter: “What friend have you know the longest and what is something special you can say about them.?” Leave your comments below and I will get Hannah to read them to me. lol =)

They say they only love you when you our dead or gone... Well lets change that!

As always the message comes to you with love and pure D-Lite. =)
P.S. There is plenty of my good friends I haven't mentioned yet, but I got to start somewhere! =)

Blog entry about friends...






I have such great friends... I am surrounded by caring, loving, inspirational, funny, and just all around wonderful people. All throughout my life I have had a great support group. I always seem to fine quality people. It starts with my three closes buddies who are Brait (I have know since I was 4 so about 25 years), Mikey J (since 6th grade... lets see about 16 years), and J.J.(12 years). We all have gone in and out of each others lives throughout the years, but our always there for each other. Even my mother said in a recent visit you have always had loyal friends. Through those three people alone I have met some incredible people and have become part of their families as well. I also knew my buddy Ian Rice who pasted away for about the same time as J.J. Brait was my first best friend and he is truly like the older brother I never had. We could go without talking for any amount of time and pick up right were we left off. Mikey J or as most call him “Jack” because his last name is Jackman. He was always been my back bone he really stood up for me and always pushed me to do great things. J.J. well he is like my twin brother. Our lives are so similar its kinda scary. Well the early part of our lives. He is now married and has a wonderful family. So that is were we are different now days...lol. At their house I am known as Uncle D. I have posted a lot of pics of his kids and you will see more in the future. Here is a few more good ones. They are awesome kids. Ian has been in and out of my life too, but always part of the circle. I really started to get to know him in the last few years he was alive. He is the nicest guy I have ever known. Here is something I wrote about him few days after he past. I just found in my phone the other day. It was something I was actually hoping to read at his funeral, but it didn't workout that way.



A few days after Ian had left us I was reminded of text I got back around the time of Ian's death. I was sending texts out to let people know what had happened.

I got a response back from my brother that went like this "I don't really know Ian all that well, but he is really one of the nicest guys I know." I really think that, as short as it is, is one of the best ways to describe Ian. He was the nicest most caring person I think I have ever met. I remember he came over for my birthday party sleep over. He told me he brought over his own sheets. I was very confused and asked him why. He quickly replied. I brought them because I sweat sometimes when I sleep and I didn't want to sweat on to your couch. A small thing I know, but just a small examples of how he tried to be nice to everyone. I was privileged to have his help with moving into my apartment that I am in now about a month before he past. To which I told him many thanks and that he was a great friend. I was glad to have seen more of him in the months before he died. See there wasn't a bad bone in his body. I remember the last time we played madden and he was whooping my Heine bad. He was so apologetic. A great video game player he was. Just always fun to have around. Since his death I've thought many thoughts of Ian and so many make me smile and laugh. His mom said he was such a happy kid. I think he was a happy person in general. I'm sad because I can't have anymore years with Ian a.k.a. Ricecakes.

Wish I could have started our friendship sooner, but I feel very lucky that I had as much time as I have had with Ian. He is now the glue between the rest of us close buddies, family and everyone he touch on his time on earth. When I really get sad and miss Ian I think of what he would say. He would probably say "it's cool man don't worry about me. Live your life, enjoy a movie, play some games, and work on your madden skills." Then he would do that Ian chuckle and that huge Ian smile. Ian gave and gave. He gave me so much. Great memories, his family,inspiration for my health, and my life in general. Why does it take someones death for us to really focus on how wonderful we are. Look, Ian chose all of us for good reason. I feel lucky he chose me and so should everyone else that got to know him. Ian has reminded me to live and love. I hope when you look back at how Ian touched your life he brings up that same inspiration. It's always harder for the ones left behind. To David, Shelia, and Bri Rice I am no replacement for your the wonderful son and brother you lost, but I feel very happy to be a part of the rice's family. I love all of you as well. I will miss the physical Ian that I loved so much, but now every time I miss him I look into my heart and there he is smiling right back at me. Till we meet again my dear friend.... I love you man.

Well after that passage I will say this...”None of us will be here forever.. and we will either have to say goodbye to others or others will have to say goodbye to us. Live life to the fullest and leave nothing on the table.”



My birthday last year which was the best one I ever had. I had all my closest buddies over for a gamer sleep over at my house. I didn't realize how much of a going away party it was. Ian past away the next month and my brother moved to Colorado just before that. One Buddy named Chad had become a new daddy two months before and that started taking a lot of his time. As it should kids are a lot of work. J.J. who I talked about before is married with two kids. Hard to get together with him. Brait is married and trying to get his business going. Mikey J left few months later to Washington to live with his parents. So like a lot of things in my life last year I lost many things. Which I think that I have mentioned before.



Hold on... I am not going to end the entry like that! Just this is how my mind works. I process lots of things as they come to me. I actually have 3 pages open with three different ideas I am trying to get out of my head before I lose them...lol. This is actually part 2 of a blog entry I wrote few weeks ago. Where I was missing my core friends. I was bit upset at plans falling through. I didn't mean to make anyone feel bad. I am a communicator. If I can't get it out some how than I will explode. You don't want that it's messy.



So what I wanted to talk about in this entry is although I don't see many of my core friends there is still so many great people that have stepped in to fill those rolls and add to my huge circle of friends. Between Paula and myself we know so many people. Especially from my old circle of coworkers/friends at Coffee People. Especially after over 7 and ½ years of working there...lol.



So last Saturday I got invited over to Jessica and Kristin's House to have corn beef and cabbage. Which was fucking awesome! My sis did good job with dessert as well. She got me something gluten free god bless my sis. Jess and Kristin are wonderful and such a great couple. We spent a lot of time together last year during the summer going rafting and my sisters backyard BBQ's. They both were a part of the big rafting trip we went on last summer too. We are also planning one again this summer...=). It was my first time being at their home and I loved it. The feeling there is very warm and homey. Its full of color and character. As you will see in some of the pictures.



They also have a Salt rock lamp which is something I was thinking about getting before I found the lamps I have now. It was nice to see one in person though its very cool.



I love light and color. If you ever come to my home those are very important things to me. My mom couldn't actually sleep here because it wasn't dark enough...lol. I think she is just like my sister. Where they need absolute darkness to sleep. Bah! No way!Anyways We had a wonderful meal and dessert. Then just hung about. It's funny I use to be so shy when going into crowds. It would take me awhile to read the crowd and see what I could get away with as far as jokes and what part of myself I felt like sharing. Now days I am so more confident. I still bit quiet at first because I do still read people, but I feel like I am way more out going. Like I turned on a switch in my head somewhere. Usually I use to hide behind my sister or my close buddies and just follow their lead. Not anymore motherf@#$ers!



So what is my whole point of this entry. Even thought things don't go as planned. Remember its life and there is other times to look forward to. Also don't forget to let those around you know how much they mean to you. We are all really blessed when we actually look and listen to the world around us. =) Community is a wonderful thing. That's a little of that vitamin D for ya.



Your question is a two parter: “What friend have you know the longest and what is something special you can say about them.?”



As always the message comes to you with love and pure D-Lite. =)

One step closer to my studio... Two steps closer to creating...

Hmmmmm where to start... Oh its been a great two days off. The greatness actually started before my weekend even began. Working my 9-5 shift on Sunday (which is actually my Friday) is always nice because I get to work with a great crew of people. Starting with Myrna... she is from the Philippines

and runs our wok bar at work. You do not touch her back up veggies or things that deal with the wok bar without consulting her first. I remember first meeting her I thought “wow she is very stern lady and crazy protective of her wok bar”. But during the first 6 months I worked at “The Market” we got to work together. I got to know her and worked hard to gain her respect. She has grown to love me and I have grown to love her. I am like the translator and last line of defense for her and vice-versa for the deli or the cooks in the kitchen who dare mess with her. I am the mediator between Myrna and the Deli department.... Lol Oh the joy. =)You might be thinking right now that she is a crazy lady,but really she is far from that and you just have to understand her(both verbally because her accent from the Philippines is still very thick and how she thinks lol). Well the point of me saying all this is. Sunday is her Monday and my Friday. Its always a fun day for us. We work on prep and I tease her and she teases me. We laugh and joke around with each other and the rest of our coworkers. I tease her about how she says things in English with her accent and she calls me a sucker. Which only sounds funny if you hear her say it. Trust me its too funny. Then at 11:30am our mid for the day showed up and it was the lovely Michelle. So with her arrival it was now official the party was in full effect. Dancing and singing to music playing over the intercom, teasing Myrna, and sharing so much laughter. As the afternoon progressed. All our favorite employees kept adding to the party. We even got to celebrate Kim's birthday when she showed up at 2 for her closing shift. Thanks to daylight savings and the great group of people my day when by very fast.

After work I went and had dinner at the Rice Family's house. Thanks to Shelia (a.k.a. Momma Rice)there was plenty of great gluten free foods for me to enjoy. She even got me tofu sour cream for my bake potato. She is such a sweetheart. Watched the blazers kick some heine with the guys. Then back to my house. Great day, wonderful people... I am truly blessed.

Monday morning... was a busy day. Woke up early to head to Dr. B's office(a.k.a. Dr. Samantha Brody) to have our monthly chat about my progress and then some acupuncture. My sister was there doing the same thing before I got there. So she stayed after she was done to wait for me. We then headed off to do some errands. Bank, our work for grocery shopping, and then to the Nike employee store. I had to stock the fridge for my cousin Jason's visit later that day. So after grocery shopping we took my groceries back to my place. I changed my clothes. Because apparently I can't wear anything that's not NIKE into the Nike employee store... Lol. Then after more money was spent we then headed off to Bamboo Grove to meet two of our Heine cousins Jason and Kyle for some Hawaiian food.

 Yum!It was D-licious as usual. Although I didn't make the best choices for what I should have chose. It's my weakness. I really need to work on it in the future. So after lunch my sister left me with both Kyle and Jason.

So we headed back to my place. This is wear it gets really fun. See there aren't many people in this world that really get me on the level that both Kyle and Jason get me. Jason and I have laughed so hard on so many occasions. I was lucky to catch Jason while he was in town. He came for many reasons. He flew in from Arizona where he lives to help his girlfriend with moving down to Arizona from here. He also came in town to help me get started on my studio that I am putting together for myself. My cousin Jason is a wealth of knowledge for lots of things especially when talking about technology and music. So I had ordered some parts for my PC for him to install and reformat my computer. All the while Kyle and me put my office chair together that I bought months ago. That was pretty funny situation as well...wish I had a video camera for that. You will see that new chair in some of the pictures I show you in this blog. I am sitting on it right now. *bounces up and down on it* It's still in one piece...lol. So as Jason was working away we all just catching up with each other. Talking about this and that. We all are getting older and entering that second level of the Heine family. We all have come so far. I was a bit sad I didn't get to see Kyle's son Lil Carter. He is fucking rad and so cute. See him up above to the right in the only pic I have of him Kyle took a few weeks ago.  Yum!

So then Kyle decided to head out. So then it was just Jason and I with my computer. I got some new additions for it. For those that know a lot about computers know that reformatting your computer NEVER goes exactly how you plan it too(well that goes for PCs anyways). There are always little things that come up. So we had to do a bit of trouble shooting. Which is Jason's favorite thing to do...lol. “Bills in the mail!”

Bought an external hard drive to use for both my PC and the Mac I plan to buy soon. The funny part is when we plugged the external hard drive into the PC is was doing all this weird shit and limited how we partitioned the drive out. Plugged it into my cousins mac and it worked just fine... go figure...lol. Oh PC ... how you keep losing serious brownie points. So we started the whole process probably around 4pm and finished around 3am. We didn't just reformat though we were doing lots of other things. like in between waiting for my PC to reformat which takes FOREVER. Then when we were trouble shooting (mainly for the my printer... have you ever see that part in office space...with the fax machine...can't say I didn't wish I had a bat at the time. I do however have a ninja sword now that I think about it. Lol ) It was a bit frustrating. =)

He talk to me about the basics of recording and things of that nature. I won't go into detail I don't want to bore you. For us we love that kinda stuff. I played around with his macbook and mostly played around in garage band program making a little jingle that was pretty cool. Then he finally gave me a copy of his rock band Rex Sole's album named “Elasticity” that he has been working on since 2008.

We listened to it a bit and talked about it as well. See my cousin and I think about music different that most. Mostly because we both have been involved with it. Especially him with all his schooling he has done for music. He  also respects my opinion about his music a lot. He knows I appreciate the little things and that I tell him straight. I don't blow smoke up anyone's heine.

So as you can see from these pics we were hard at work...lol. So Jason finally left around 3am in the morning.

But that was only part one. He would return midday the next day. This second day would be a day more just kicking back and hanging out. We did still talk about more studio stuff.

Tuesdays early afternoon... Jason makes his way back out to the westside of Portland. Still being the great host that I am I put together our favorite meal. First starting out with our favorite drink. We both got hooked on these when we were on our trip in 2004 in Hawaii. I was drinking them like water in Hawaii. So many in fact we switched to virgin ones because otherwise we would have gone broke. Lol So here is a picture of what they look like. Lava flows are what they are called. The ones I made for us were fucking tasty! A wonderful surprise for Jason. Then I was was munching on some brussels sprouts as our nuggets and tots were in the oven cooking. It was a wonderful meal. Seen here:

Played more some bowling and golf on the Wii... Jason whooped my heine in both... as usual.

Then we started talking about the mac I am going to buy...

But alas all good things must come to an end. BUT just as he was packing his stuff up he really started getting me laughing again about all sorts of shit that probably wouldn't make sense unless you were there with us..... Except maybe this last photo....

I not sure it will be as funny to everyone one else, but I had a hard time even taking the picture I was laughing so hard. I was laughing so hard I was crying and thought I might lose my breathe and possibly die. Oh how I love my cousin. We have a special bond that has been through a lot of politics of the family. He truly is one the most talented people I am blessed to know. He has always inspired me and helped me push myself to new heights. Just another wonderful person in my truly blessed life. Check out his video games on youtube they are fucking halarious! Just type Jason Heine into youtube and they will come up. Serious do it! They are awesome and funny!

Your questions for this blog is... “What do you think of that last photo? Did you laugh at it?”

With love and pure D-Lite. =)

Higher love....

Had to post the actual video in response to my sisters comment on my post. This original post I did this morning was short because I had to get ready for work.Then later she finished my thought with her own blog entry. Here check out my sisters entry to see what she took from it. =) http://ooohlalapaulalu.blogspot.com/2010/03/bring-me-higher-love-please.html

Mr Steve Winwood you are the man lol. Here is a link that will give you a flash back. Lyrics are below. Its actually some epic shit. I mean that! Read it and see if there isn't any truth in it for you. Here you go...


Think about it,


There must be higher love.

Down in the heart or hidden in the stars above.

Without it,

Life is wasted time.

Look inside you're heart and I'll look in mine.


Things look so bad everywhere.

In this whole world what is fair?

We walk the line and we try to see.

Falling behind what could be?


Bring me a higher love.

Bring me a higher love.

Ohh

Bring me a higher love.

Where's that higher love I keep thinking of?


The world is turning,

And we're just hanging on.

Facing our fear,

Standing out there alone.

Yearning, and it's real to me.

Must be someone

Who's feeling for me.


Things look so bad everywhere.

In this whole world what is fair?

We walk the line and we try to see.

Falling behind what could be?


Bring me a higher love.

Bring me a higher love

Ohh

Bring me a higher love.

I can rise above on higher love.


I will wait, for it.

I'm not too late for bed.

Until then I'll sing my song.

To cheer the night along.


Bring me a higher love.

Bring me a higher love

Ohh

Bring me a higher love.

Where's that higher love I keep thinking of?


Bring me a higher love.

Bring me a higher love

Ohh

Bring me a higher love.

Where's that higher love I keep thinking of?


Bring me a higher love. (Bring me a higher love)

Bring me a higher love.

Ohh (Whoo! )

Bring me a higher love. (Bring me a higher love)

Bring me a higher love.


Bring me a higher love.

Bring me a higher love

Ohh

Bring me a higher love.

Bring me a higher love

Ohh.


Yes bring me a higher love... and I will wait for it. Are the things that stick out the most for me. So powerful. Awesome. =)

After reading the lyrics for the song. Who knew that Steve Winwood would be another piece to the puzzle.... I didn't see that coming. lol
If thoughts our the fuel for the things you create for your future than I am getting my thoughts out and focused!!!

Your question. What songs are you using to focus your thoughts in the direction you want to go these days?

With love and pure D-Lite. =)

The Man with the white hat is long gone...

Lets talk about my love life for a second. Not the lack there of in this last year, but a little deeper. In the past (like most of us) I have had a rocky time with the opposite sex. I been used, miss treated, and just plan disrespected. That is why every time I tell my sister about a new girl she gets this very protective look on her face. For those of you that have read my first blog know a bit about this and one of the deeper cuts put into my heart. There is plenty more that came long before that one. We must all go through those experiences to figure out things about ourselves and what we want for future relationships.

I once was what I call “the man with the white hate”. The gentleman and the fixer of any problems the women I liked had. Whatever they weren't finding with the current or past relationships they would find with me. From just a really good friend, to money (did that way to much), to just giving you the love I was not giving myself or that they couldn't find for themselves. Over and over I was that guy and I played that part well. Not to say I was perfect. In general though I feel I am a great guy and always have been.

Why do I bring this up you ask? What sparked this entry? Well there is a current person that I like that is in fact the same situation that I have had in the past. I know this and still part of me wants to play that role. To put on the white suit with the white hate and be there sunshine....be there love and light. In the back of my mind I know this just leads me down the same path. Don't get me wrong I want to be the sunshine in someones life, but it needs to be more even. I will not have my sunshine sucked out of me again... no no no. I have worked to hard to get it back. Also, I am not looking for the perfect girl as well because I know that she isn't out there. I want someone close to where I am right now in life. The girl I like is definitely not there... yet, but this guy ain't got time to wait. So that is why I say the man with the white hat is gone... It's D-lite all day... everyday.

So my Vitamin D for the day actually relates to this topic.

“If I had a chance for another try,
I wouldn't change a thing,
This made me all and who I am inside,
And if I could I'd thank God that I am here and that I am alive.
And everyday I wake I tell myself another harmless lie,
the whole wide world is mine.” -AVA

See we have to go through those things in life good or bad to make us who we are.

What about you... would you change anything that has happened in your life?

Have wonderful day! With love and pure D-Lite. =)

oh and one last one I couldn't help put on here lol. Classic...

Wow my two days couldn't have been more different....

Monday was a great day. I spent it out and about. First, I started out the day with lots of sunshine and music while on my way to my doctor's office for acupuncture. It was a great session and when I was done I felt so refreshed. After my visit with my doctor I continued with the music and sunshine. My phone was selecting just the right music to wake me up and smile. So from there I met up with two of the best woman I know for a viewing of Alice in wonderland 3-D. I thought the movie was done pretty well. It was funny watching them jump back in their seats when stuff was coming at them. Lol Not that I didn't jump a few times. The only part I had a problem with was the music they played when the mad hatter was doing his weird dance. I was like I know it needed to be something weird, but that selection was just plain weak! So after the movie I got invited to come over and have a gluten free dinner. See Shelia(a.k.a. Momma rice) Found out she has a certain disease (that I can't remember the name) and is now eating gluten free to help out in the healing process and her overall health. Works for me. So instead of going to the market closest to the theater (my work) on my day off. They took me to my old store. Which worried me for a second. That is where the infamous ex works. The one that I blogged about in first blog. Well I sat with the idea for a few seconds then said “Yeah that is fine, I think that I am ready and I don't care anymore.” So we made our way there. She was not working, but I got to see a lot of other people that I haven't seen in long time. I gave a lot of great hugs and love. I also got a lot of great hugs back and love back. I am blessed in the fact I know a lot of great people. I miss a lot of people over at the store. I do not however miss working there. So we left there and I hung out with the Rice family. For those reading this that don't know who that is. They are the family of one of my dearest friends that past away last may Ian Rice. So I hung out with his dad (David), Bri, and Momma Rice. It was a lot of fun. They are quite the bunch even with Ian not being there. Momma rice and I talked a lot about gluten free things. I am very excited for her in entering the next chapter in her life. She is very excited as well. They also talk about and showed pictures of the day they spread Ian's ashes at the coast. They got some great pictures. It was a perfect day. Sunny, Warm, and just perfect. I wish I had some on here to share. They also gave me one of his beanies to have that he got by beating his dad in a game of pool. That was very nice. Other than that hat I have Ian's ninja turtles trilogy dvd set. So then eventually they took me home. As we got into the car it started snowing...lol...yeah middle of march. I guess last year it snowed up through April. After I got home I connected with an old work friend. Once again I am blessed to know so many great people. It was a very nice day away from my home and being out in the world. I planned it that way. Because my next day was suppose to be all about being at home....well it most definitely was.

Tuesday started out with the fire alarm going off. Way before my alarm was suppose to go off. What a way to start the day. I really actually wasn't mad. I took it as my time to get up. I had lots to do today. So I put on my Angels & Airwaves play list that has all the albums in order. Nothing gets me started in the morning better. It was great morning. Spent sometime online doing my routine. Then off I went around my house to start with my massive cleaning of my house. Clean inside of fridge, detail my bathroom, and cleaned the floors completely just to name a few. I really got all of that done. Plus the normal laundry and kitchen duties. What was the spark that got me to do all of this. Well I do clean on regular basis, but this time I was actually planning to have some friends over for a movie night. Lol Well that was the plan anyways. Well that was the part of the day that failed. It sucks when you base your whole day around something to have one of them tell you last minute the can't be there. Especially when that comes over Facebook not even a call or text. And the other “lost track of time”... Coooool. I know why the other couldn't be there and I hadn't talked to him in almost a week. shakes head. I am bothered by it falling apart. More importantly it brought up a real sadness of missing my close friends. My birthday coming up worries me if this is any indication of my current group of friends. I guess I will more focus on just spending the day with myself. I'm sure a few will be there. Anyways the video below is a song I think about my close friends. The Chorus is what means the most to me. “Friends.... How many of us have them..”



Sorry for the kinda of downer ending. Its actually a lot tamer then what I am really feeling. It is life and I must feel it and move through it. This too shall pass. Tomorrow is another day.

Today's question for the day is: What do you like to do on your birthday? Is there any traditions you have?

With love and pure D-lite. =)

I can't wait for the day....

I can't wait for the day I wear a piece of clothing without an “X” in the size. I remember one day my cousin Cj and I teased my other cousin Jason that he would never have to wear a piece of clothing with an “X” in the size. He actually got kinda mad about it. He has always been very skinny. He put on quite a bit of muscle when he started playing the drums. I felt bad, but at the same time he has no idea the struggles I went through. Maybe he had struggles about being on the other end of the spectrum? For me it hasn't always been great. I remember wearing sweat pants in junior high school because it was easier to find my size. I really didn't get a clue about fashion till I was a junior in high school. Oh man... some of the early pictures.... man I was a mess. It's not about looking fresh or fly. How your dressed (at least for me) is a good show of how you are on the inside. Taking care of yourself and how you represent yourself to others is a good thing. Feels good to start picking things out I like to wear and not just because I found something that fits. I will have to say especially in the last five years I made fat guys look good. Lol I was too excited to go shop this spring for some new clothes for the new body I am creating or getting back to. See I wasn't always a big guy. I was skinny up until third grade. Then because of a lot of things going on in my life I started packing on the weight. So in a way I am trying to get back to that skinny little boy I once was. New and improved D-Lite.

So besides waiting for the day I don't have to wear something with and “X” in the size. Here is a list of a few other things I can't wait for.

The day......someone doesn't go... “Hey there BIG guy...” I know most don't mean harm, but I hate it.

The day I can sit Indian style... Legs crossed and sitting up right. I don't remember the last time I did that!

The day that someone doesn't sit me at certain part of the table because of my weight...

The day that someone doesn't assume that I am hungry...lol. Even if I am... lol Or even assume he wants seconds.

The day I can run around without getting winded beyond belief. I am actually making progress on this one.

Those are all I can think of right now, but I am sure that there is more.

So here is your Vitamin D for this subject. “If you don't like something change it, if you don't like the way something is... reinvent it”.

Your question: Do you catch yourself doing anything on that list to others?(maybe one I haven't listed) Or have one of those things happen to you?

With love and pure D-Lite. =)

I can't wait for the day....

I can't wait for the day.... I wear a piece of clothing without an “X” in the size...I remember one day my cousin Cj and I teased my other cousin Jason that he would never have to wear a piece of clothing with an “X” in the size. He actually got kinda mad about it. He has always been very skinny. He put on quite a bit of muscle when he started playing the drums. I felt bad, but at the same time he has no idea the struggles I went through. Maybe he had struggles about being on the other end of the spectrum? For me it hasn't always been great. I remember wearing sweat pants in junior high school because it was easier to find my size. I really didn't get a clue about fashion till I was a junior in high school. Oh man... some of the early pictures.... man I was a mess. It's not about looking fresh or fly. How your dress (at least for me) is a good show of how you are on the inside. Taking care of yourself and how you represent yourself to others is a good thing. Feels good to start picking things out I like to wear and not just because I found something that fits. I will have to say especially in the last five years I made fat guys look good. Lol I was too excited to go shop this spring for some new clothes for the new body I am creating or getting back to. See I wasn't always a big guy. I was skinny up until third grade. Then because of a lot of things going on in my life I started packing on the weight. So in a way I am trying to get back to that skinny little boy I once was. New and improved D-Lite.



So besides waiting for the day I don't have to wear something with and “X” in the size. Here is a list of a few other things I can't wait for.



The day......someone doesn't go... “Hey there BIG guy...” I know most don't mean harm, but I hate it.



The day I can sit Indian style... Legs crossed and sitting up right. I don't remember the last time I did that!



The day that someone doesn't sit me at certain part of the table because of my weight...



The day that someone doesn't assume that I am hungry...lol. Even if I am... lol Or even assume he wants seconds.



The day I can run around without getting winded beyond belief. I am actually making progress on this one.



Those are all I can think of right now, but I am sure that there is more.



So here is your Vitamin D for this subject. “If you don't like something change it, if you don't like the way something is... reinvent it”.



Your question: Do you catch yourself doing anything on that list to others?(maybe one I haven't listed) Or have one of those things happen to you?



With love and pure D-Lite. =)

Yay! Gluten free cake!

Ummm wait bad idea. My work was having its 10 year birthday this last week. So over the last weekend it was handing out birthday cake to the customers for free in celebration. Well I never made it up to demo to get a piece or see if they had cake that I could eat. Most of you might know, but for those that don't. There are certain things I cannot eat. Dairy and wheat, but dairy is a definite DO NOT EAT. Well I found some cake later in the day in the break room that was leftover from earlier in the day. It was marked "Gluten free"... Yay!right? I had a piece and it actually tasted pretty good. Not all gluten free things are good. So I took a bit more, then later I packaged up some to take home. It was my Friday and I thought would be nice to have a treat for my days off. Well I took some home and enjoyed it that night. What I didn't think about or realize was... just because the cake is gluten free that doesn't mean it's dairy free. *record scratches* Oh fuck.... Yeah so for the next couple days. Lets just say that someone didn't feel right. I kept thinking on each one of my many bathroom runs...(get it runs...lol) "why the hell am I feeling this way". What did I eat that is doing this to me? Then the morning before I went back to work it dawned on me. THE FUCKING BIRTHDAY CAKE! *slaps forehead* Fucking moron. So its been three and half days since I've eaten it and I am just starting to feel a bit better. Today I felt bloated. (Is it that time of the month again... j/k) Most people don't get my dietary restrictions,but trust me they are there for a very good reasons. Every time I mess up I am reminded how bad it use to be. It's sad the important things that matter as I get older. lol Just want a pleasant shit is all I ask...lol.


On to better things...


There are good things on the way. On my way out to the bike shed to get my bike to ride home last night and tonight. I noticed the trees in the shopping area are in full bloom with white flowers. Its kinda pretty at night. It's like how the snow is at night, it makes it quite a bit lighter out during the night time hours. Very pretty... and reminds me there is only 16 days till spring. I say it all the time, but can't fucking wait. It has been a little chiller of late, but spring is pretty much here.

Also, there is more music on the horizon... beyond the heine loads I have been finding of late. So much good music I think my head is going to explode! I am currently listen to a awesome cd my co-worker made for me. Because I made her a cd with some of my music and some other current favorites. The biggest music news to me is Jack Johnson is coming out with new album slated for June 1st. Can't wait to see what he has in store for my ears to hear. Here is a bit of his interview on MTV News about his single hitting the radio soon.

The album "The Sea" is scheduled to hit stores June 1, and the first single from the record — a tune called "You and Your Heart" — will debut on radio next month. Johnson said. "And at some point, some of the books I was reading started leading me in a certain direction, kind of like this broken king character. That area you get in sometimes, where you stop trusting your heart and you start thinking too much about logic and this and that. So it's basically about that separation that can happen between the self and the heart and trying to trust your heart again."

Read more at http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1633111/20100303/johnson_jack.jhtml

Well I think that is it. Your vitamin D for the day is letting us all try trusting our heart during times that we get lost in the mind. You would be shocked how far that gets ya. =)

Today's Question of the day is. What albums are you waiting for this year? Are you interested in the new Jack Johnson cd?

With love and pure D-Lite. =)

My lost weekend...

Wow, feels like my weekend just flew by....

So how did the progress go with my handy dandy "to do list"? Well you will be happy to know I didn't even come close to finishing it. lol I did however knock some important things off the list. The one I am most proud of is I finished my laundry. Your thinking..."Yeah so? What's the big deal?" What I mean about  the statement "finished my laundry" is that I washed, I dried, and I F'ing  folded that S#!%. Oh and I organized my closet and dresser as I was putting the clothes in their proper place. Going through and seperating more clothes that are way to big to wear anymore. I now have a huge pile of clothes waiting for my buddy to pick up. Who is also working on losing weight as well. So it helps to let him enjoy my sick @$$ wardrobe and keep him motivated to keep losing weight. *pats myself on the back* I am very proud of myself. Oh I have come so far...*tear forms in right eye*.  But really... I'm serious!

What else did I get done on that list? *looks down between my arms right in front of the keyboard where I put my list so I will look at it more* Well, I had late night battle with my oven. It went fairly well, but there will be a round two coming soon. I was not prepared. The second biggest thing I finished on my list was my taxes! Yay! About time. Well atleast its not April 14 or something. I could never understand people waiting that long, but then again I have never had to owe money...well atleast to federal goverment. I was happy to find out that I actually am getting a tax return this year! From federal and state taxes. More shopping? Well actually I just got stressed out because I have medical bills and things I want to do. The pressure to do both stresses me out and I think is the reason I have this weird headache I have had ever since I finished my taxes. I also did a lot of cooking. Good old Chef Heine. I made some more of the same vietnemese carmel braised chicken thighs with asparagus. I changed the recipe a bit and didn't like the results as much. Still good enought to eat. I will be enjoying them for lunch at work tomorrow.

I did however catch up on my sleep though. That was much needed! Speaking of sleep I need to get some more and hopefully this headache goes away by morning time. Today was still wonderful day though dispite this headache.

I will leave you with a positive note..."No matter the weather... rain or shine... there is enough sunshine in your heart if you live your life in love".

With love and pure D-lite. =)

Happy First Day of March! Oh Yeah!

Oh man so much to say... and I got lots to do! Yes, I have made another "to do" list for myself. I do this so my future wife won't have too. lol I know tough being the perfect guy. j/k lol Cleaning, taxes, and laundry. I know exciting right? Well there is a bit more than that. Nothing some good music can't handle.

First off, Happy first day of March!!! Oh how I have been waiting for this day! 20 days till the official first day of spring! I will wear shorts today to celebrate!

Second, Coldplay might have there new cd out by Christmas... OH F@#% YEAH! Which means there will be a tour to follow. I don't care who I have to kill to get tickets, but I am going!

Finally, your Vitamin D for the day. I was thinking about the power of the word "yet". By using the word you give yourself positive possibilities of something to come. Meaning for instants, up to now or so far at this point in life, but the future is always unaccounted for. "Like I have lost a large amount of weight, but I haven't reached my goal... yet" or "Have you had your vitamin D for the day yet?"

So since we're almost out of winter (finally) how has your winter gone? Good or bad? I dislike winter, but I have tried to reinvent it for myself and I think I have done good job this year. It probably helped the weather was been very nice for winter time in the Pacific NW... i.e. lots of sun and warmer weather. Also, I hate February for many of reasons. Death of my father, Valentine's day is too fake love should be celebrated everyday!, and it doesn't even have 30 days... the list goes on. What is a month or season you dislike the most?

Are you having a great day "yet"? With love and pure D-Lite! =)